Thats just so stupid, stupid!!!

Hey guys,
Well its the last day of the week that I can post, only because tomorrow I'll be working all day to cover for Saturday which I'll take off for my 21st/skydive etc.
Feel like such a retard though - I seem to get an attitude about the smallest things, its so pathetic, like this morning I got a lift in with one of my best friends and she is great we are really similar, too similar. Here for some stupid reason I feel wierd because things are different this morning and so get angry at myself, when that happens I'm just generally a bit more quiet. She then keeps quiet too, because she knows that I'm angry at something. This makes it worse, but only because I know its my fault and I don't know why I'm stupid like that, ITS JUST SO STUPID! At least she asked what was going on, and I could tell her I didn't really know and attempt to explain the inexplicable - which made me look and feel like a fool!
At Least she is that sort of friend that she doesn't care that I am one, with that I am truely blessed. Actually its very funny because just as I was trying to finish explaining to her this guy walked past and gave me a real funny look. This was because my friend and I were standing in this pathway and I was facing her and there was this tree obscuring her from this dudes veiw. He just happens to walk past as I'm saying "you know I wonder, really wonder, about myself sometimes" to her, but from his view I was saying this to a tree!! Well man when my friend and I realised this we just laughed so much. Maybe thats what I really needed this morning, a laugh.

Anyway, only a day till my party/BBQ and its gonna be good fun but also different, Will see how many people turn up for it. I've got old friends coming and that always brings a different angle to it too.
Who likes BBQ's??? When its hot weather over here its a favourite past time!
I'm feeling like I need to step up my game now that I'm gonna be 21, I want to be better in the main areas of my life: Relationships, Uni, Rock climbing, Photography, and not Least my spiritual walk with the Creator God, my God. Want it all to be in proportion to what I need.

I suppose I'd better be off and get my priorities straight, I'm coming up to final exams(for this Semesters papers) in two weeks, so I'm afraid my blog is going to suffer along with me on this one! Will try to keep everyone updated with my study fun!!

And the pics - will see If I can collate some from ones I've got at home, and also try taking some more, maybe some morning shots of my city early on Saturday morning perhaps! Sounds like fun!

Till after my party and birthday, catch you all, maybe I'll be over my start life crisis by then!
Will need some prayer before I get there though!


David